This post is such a reminder of the beauty of life

We don’t know what’s in store so,we must continue to be ever present in each day.

Love what you do and strive to be better. Everyday is a new day for knowing and learning more.

I look at this post and I am reminded of my journey then. The break through I had in understanding how to rebuild my life after divorce. The whole idea of trusting myself to take on new ideas and put them into play. Even as the ups and downs of this year continued, my confidence and readiness to tackle whatever life had for me was put into play early fall 2018 with my diagnosis of breast cancer.

My journey was a journey of love. The gathering of my children, family and friends the unexpected support through the ups and downs. The trials and tribulations of the day to day what’s known and unknown. Learning to embrace what I had under control and let go of even the things out of my control.

Learning to take in the love I so often shared with people was the most difficult. I loved when I had a visitor. Even the mere thought of someone visiting me was how I connected to my strength. I’d cook meals just to show I could get up, was healing to my soul, but my friends and family knew what I needed, and my doorbell rang each day with meals, groceries, and gifts of love.

Each evening my friend took over and made sure my mind was clear. The kiss on the forehead, the hugs for me to go to sleep and not be afraid. The late night phone conversation with my sisters and friends when I couldn’t sleep. Even my girlfriend from California stayed on the phone until I fell asleep. The unexpected gifts, the beach trip that helped me conquer so much, the trip to Orlando that brought out the laughter and the fight in me. Even today, there is a constant flow of support for my well being as this journey is forever a part of me. I, in turn will continue to help others who are walking this journey of love.

The pain is a blur! I forgot about the pain. I really can’t remember too much about the four plus surgeries and procedures. I sometimes ask my family about what happened. I have pictures and some video.

I don’t need to remember the pain. Fall 2019 the cancer is gone.

I am not the same.

I am thankful.

I know what God has done.

He’s in control

Love heals

We don’t know our hour

Whatever time we have is the time we have to do what’s in our heart.

Each day I am striving to do just that.

2020

Don’t be so hard on yourself.

You can look back at your past. It’s shows you your strength, but don’t get stuck there. The love of the present is here. The beauty is in today.

Note:

Look at that baby learning how to walk.

The courage to stand

Getting those legs strong

Looking to her parents

She holds on

She looks to let go

She may let go for a second

She is working on taking that step

She fell so many times already

There are even times where she takes a while to let go and take a step again depending on the fall

Depending on who was around

Depending on who helped her, who cheered her, who comforted her when she took a fall

Eventually she walks maybe when no one is looking.

Maybe there is a crowd

But whenever it happens

The next thing is here

LoveSurvived